Shower and Steam

I’m letting it all rush over me,
each molecule
how the exasperation of
the heat rubs off
oh
and the allowance of such a thing

every complex covalent bond slipping warmly
over my skin

waiting for the inevitable

fall

and I wonder what part of them stays with me
what is with
what is without
what do i keep
what falls freely
without my knowledge.

what bit of intense connection did I lose
because I was too busy
too careless
too wrapped up in millennial narcissism

something lost in a moment
slipped forever down the grey drain