“nothing or too much”

“Hey, where’ve you been?”

“What do you mean, kid, do you man like in all of my life? Cuz’ I’ve been everywhere; Vegas, L.A., Santa Fe, New York-“

“No, I mean where have you been the past weeks?

“Well, I’m not sure if you are aware of this but I do live in the trunk of your friend’s car.”

“you don’t live anywhere. You do don’t live anywhere, you do know that, right? You can’t actually live anywhere.”

“Yes, I do, I can. I live in the back of your friend’s Volkswagen bug.”

“And she knows this?”

“Are you an idiot, of course she doesn’t know.”

“And you sleep there? You sleep in her car?”

“I crawl in through the broken, driver’s side front window and I sleep in the back, bottle as a bear, straight, no pillow, no blanket.”

“hardcore.”

“yes, it is.”

“Charlie, you are a man of many eclectic patterns.”

“Kid, you need to stop thinking that you know me so well. I am a complex individual soul. Maybe it’s you and me together shooting shit a lot but that’s because life is boring without you. You’re literally the only person I can talk to.”

“That’s sweet.”

“Don’t interrupt. The point I’m trying to make here, kid is that I’ve lived a hello a long time, with different parents than you, different ideals of women than you; things are and were different now than they have ever been.”

“Do you think I don’t know that?”

“I know you know it, kid, but you don’t know how to take what you know and let it make you. You’re scared. You’re a fuckin’ coward.”

“Scared of what? I’m not disagreeing, I’m asking.”

“You’re scared to pick a path because you don’t know the outcome; well here’s something for you: if you choose nothing to fight for then it’s worse than choosing the wrong thing. You’re not the one in the ring, you’re the little kid on the outside who’s afraid to grow up. You’ll let your whole life go by and still be nothing, still stand for nothing, still be just a handful of dust in the wind, all because you chose nothing. You are what you do. If you do nothing, you are nothing.”

“Ok.”

“and you will go on getting older and making shit that no one likes because deep down you either have nothing or too much to fight for.”

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